It was a really good conference! Boy, did I learn a lot! Naturally I wandered to the back tables to look for…..drum roll……more books, of course! One of the books or teaching CDs on one of the tables addressed the Jezebel spirit. I know a fair amount about this particular entity; after all, I’ve warred against it on multiple occasions. It’s a particularly deceptive, seductive, and dangerous spirit, but certainly not insurmountable. As I’m fond of saying “You don’t know what you don’t know”. The front of the teaching plainly stated that disappointment can lead to an open door to the Jezebel spirit. (If I remember right, I believe that the author is James Goll, but I can’t find the teaching and don’t remember the exact name.)
I don’t know about you, but I usually don’t remember teachings in their entirety, but often a particular phrase will leap out at me that I keep chewing on, mulling over, and ultimately praying about. God is definitely saying something, but what?
In my book, “One Lamb Redeemed”, I speak of a particularly trying season in my own life where the Jezebel spirit ate my lunch! I knew in general where I messed up and how the door got open to allow this spirit to wreak havoc in my life, but the root….ahhh….the root. It all started with disappointment!
Paul states in Philippians 4: “Not that I am saying this to call attention to any need of mine; since, as far as I am concerned, I have learned to be content regardless of circumstances. I know what it is to be in want, and I know what it is to have more than enough — in everything and in every way I have learned the secret of being full and being hungry, of having abundance and being in need. I can do all things through him who gives me power.” (Phil 4:11-13, CJB) Paul clearly says that he learned the secret. Ahhhh….secret? What secret?
Webster’s defines disappointment as: “DISAPPOINTMENT, n. Defeat or failure of expectation, hope, wish, desire or intention; miscarriage of design or plan. We are apt to complain of the disappointment of our hopes and schemes, but disappointments often prove blessings and save us from calamity or ruin.”
In our minds we feel that our hopes and plans have failed. There’s been a theft, a miscarriage. Disappointment can then lead to a cycle of hopelessness and apathy, or to unforgiveness and bitterness. Either of these paths will eat your lunch!
So, what’s the secret? How big is YOUR God? How much do we REALLY trust Him? Can we truly be content in the face of failure and loss? Can we believe that God has a much greater plan for us, and may, in fact, be averting calamity or ruin in our lives?
The bigger question here is which path are you on? Are you trapped in the trauma of the past on a treadmill of hopelessness and apathy? Did the disappointments and failure lead to anger and unforgiveness? Once these doors are open, Jezebel leads to compromising your stand to a hope of peace that is no peace in order to get her way. Did you find yourself compromising in order to garner a false peace? Can you repent of your part, forgive, release and get off the wrong path and onto the path of His secret place? Can you trust Him with the disappointment and believe that He has something better for you that you just don’t see at the moment?
Now it’s time to mull, and chew, and let God answer these questions in your own life.